One of my favorite bands is Big Daddy Weave. What hooked me to them was a concert I attended where they had such a genuine heart to minister to the people there. Their latest album, Love Come To Life, was filled with songs that ministered to me after finally accepting God's call to Africa. In fact, I had such a hard time picking just one song from this album to write about in this blog because so many of them have impacted me. I narrowed it down to the song Overwhelmed because immediately after we agreed to go to Burkina Faso, God just bombarded me with His overwhelming grace. You can play the video while you read, but the video is very precious to watch since it has African children in it.
After my struggle with fear in our calling to Africa, I felt ashamed. Ashamed that I didn't trust God enough with our lives that I could say yes to Africa immediately. Ashamed that I didn't have enough faith. Ashamed that I struggled with...sin! I didn't feel like I deserved His mercy or grace, but He gave it to me anyway. Actually, He kind of poured it on me all at once.
As soon as we announced on Facebook that we were headed to Burkina Faso, we immediately received several names and contact info of people that were or had been missionaries to BF. We are so thankful for our Facebook friends that helped connect us to these people! Within a week, I had gotten in contact with them and made the most amazing friendships with some incredibly amazing missionaries!!! They have been such a HUGE source of encouragement to us. Evidence of God's grace being poured out. I didn't deserve it, but He poured it on me anyway. These new friendships alone would have been sufficient enough for me, BUT GOD, in His infinite mercy had more grace to pour on me.
One of the fears that I had a hard time getting over was that we would be the only A/G missionaries in Burkina Faso. I never envisioned us going out alone for our first term. I always thought we would be part of a team of missionaries working together. So the fear of being alone in this had been great. A couple weeks after posting we were going to BF, I was told that the Christian and Missionary Alliance has a ministry in the capitol city where we will be living. This might not seem like a big deal to anyone, but it brought tears to my eyes, and showed me just how much God loves me and is intricately involved in directing my life. You see, I was raised in the Christian and Missionary Alliance denomination. It was the reason I grew up with a love for missions. Even as a child God was guiding my footsteps. The thought overwhelmed me. When I was a child, God knew someday I would go to BF. He knew I would struggle with the fear of being alone there. He raised me up in a denomination I am not a part of anymore, but was a key foundation to my heart for missions, so I could have a connection to make friendships in BF.
We serve a God who loves us deeply and is involved intricately in our lives if we let Him. I could have said no to this calling and gone down a completely different path. I could have ignored the call of God and could have even turned my back on Him. I finally came to a point in my life, though that I was more afraid of what I would miss out on if I didn't go, then I was afraid of what could happen to us.
I am so glad I am being obedient to His calling! Out of obedience has come overwhelming grace and mercy that He has poured out on me and I believe this is just the start. I am so excited to get to Africa and see God work in us and through us!