I had heard this song countless times, but I will never forget the first time it pierced my heart like an arrow. The day before, we had been given the assignment to go to Niamey, Niger in West Africa. That night fear had gripped a hold of me in a way I never knew was possible, and I pray that fear will never again grip me in such a way. The next day, we went to the Assemblies of God Credit Union to open a checking account, and while we were in the office giving our information to the lady at the desk this song started playing on the radio. As the chorus of this song started, I felt my heart being broken and I was desperately trying not to fall apart in the middle of the bank.
"I know that you are for me,
I know that you are for me,
I know that you will never
Forsake me in my weakness"
How faithful God is to us even in our weaknesses! A weakness I didn't even know existed in me. I have never known a fear like this before and I was surprised by it's viciousness. I never thought of fear as something that could be a weakness of mine, so I was not ready for its attack. Ephesians 6:11 says, "Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes." The devil is crafty. I let my guard down and he attacked full force. The thing about being attacked though is we have 2 choices. We can lay down and take the blows or we can get up and fight. For a couple of months I am sad to say that I laid down and took the blows. BUT GOD in His infinite mercy and grace continued to work in me through this time. He continues to show me through this journey of ours that He is a loving and caring God that wants the best for us. He wants to help us through our weaknesses. Without Him helping us we nothing!
In my next blog, I will share a song that dealt with me about fully trusting God in this journey to Africa.